Woah... last message was super angry hah.

IT'S SUMMER & WE'RE GETTIN CRAZY!!!

that's all i have to say bye

Kinda pisses  me off when my boyfriend betrays me! I ask if I can come see you when you get off work and you say no cuz you'll be sleeping so you can get up in the morning to go to work. Then you call me at 11:30 saying you just got home from a party at your friends sister's house!? Ex-fuckin-scuse me!?! So I sit at home from 4:30-10:30 watching the fuckin Laguna Beach Marathon my FIRST DAY OF SUMMER because you're at work then at home "sleeping" ... so i thought... but all the while you're at a FUCKING GIRLS PARTY! Pretty sure THAT'S never happening again... you're officially in fuckin major shit buddy. You will NOT spend ANY time with those fuckin people as long as I can help it... EVER AGAIN! k thanks bye

*pissed off and probably won't get back to sleep AT ALL tonight especially since FORCING MYSELF TO SLEEP AT 10:30 DIDN'T DO MUCH GOOD SINCE I GOT WOKE RIGHT BACK UP AT 11:30*

very angry with you

Torn

So have you ever cared about two people so much that you would give anything for both of them? And everything's happy and perfect in the world then all of a sudden the world splits in half and they're on separate sides and you're stuck hanging on for dear life with one hand holding each edge? Well yeah.. it sucks. She's blood and I love her no matter what and I want her happy and she seems happy to me but at the same time, he may not be blood but he's close enough... he's family too, has been for a while. I want him happy too. And what do you do when you see that one of those people you care about wholeheartedly is torn up and you can see it and there's nothing you can do and they fight and then make up and then fight again... and nothing's right in the world anymore. And you want to comfort them both in every way possible but you're stuck... because those two small weak hands are still clinging lifelessly to both edges of the world and if you try to let go to comfort one hand you'll slip away from the other and possibly not get the grip back again.

Damn...

Well I love you both and this will be hard on both of you but I will try my hardest to comfort you both in every way possible but I will NOT choose one or the other because I love you both with every breath in me!

Wow k so last weekend... I went to the zoo with Trina. it was a blast! Then I had another busy week at school & the seniors left! Friday I went outta town for my neices graduation from preschool. Came home yesterday & went to Megan's graduation party then to see my boy! Today I'm taking pictures at the graduation and senior celebration. Also, I have James' graduation party... annnd yeah it's gonna be a long day! Tomorrow's going to suck because I'll be extremely tired allllll day cuz I won't get home until 1 tonight. so yeah. Busy busy busy! All the way up to summer! Monday-Thursday I have finals *they're all easy*... Fiday's the last day of school!!! I'm going to breakfast with my ladies that morning and then to school... then to Taliano's with the girls annnnddd not quite sure what else's going on that day.... SUMMER!!!!! SENIORS!!!! 07!!!!!!

later